Inspect your true intention;
to lighten what you hold, let it go.
If you're a good friend but a horrible person,
I hope that you would know to inspect your true intention
I’m scared of what I know, I let it go.
Tell the truth, did you feel haunted-
where things went and how they started?
Spit in my face, call me a bastard-
since when did your parents matter?
Your heart’s as deep as your own reassurance,
climbing the ladder, forget who you told to hold you, console you.
I hope that when you reach the top,
the pain you cause weighs back on you ten fold.
I feel better when you're not around.
Constant pressure- hate up and down.
18 times drunk and lashing out.
If everyone knew you for you- you wouldn’t be around right now.
Slowly now become more common,
what you’ve done and what you’re proud of.
Hold me lazily, now who is whose baby?
Bully me daily, pretending you're there to save me-
let's walk on our dead maybes; eggshells betray me.
You remember who was hated,
I reached my arm out for you to take it.
And when someone takes what they want from you,
you just want to take back some control.
I feel better when you're not around.
Constant pressure- hate up and down
18 times drunk and lashing out.
If everyone knew you for you- you wouldn’t be around right now.

Depends on what you mean, you lie to me.
I know you well enough to let you feel free,
because it depends on what you mean...
What you whisper in your sleep...
You dream too much it seems.
You’re afraid to be this unhappy.
Did you mean it, how could you say that?
If it was me, I know it would have felt bad.
Try to run away, reimagine.
Another life that won’t happen.
Would you be mad, well of course you would.
Take it all back just cause you should.
Would I be mad, well of course I would.
But I’d take it all back just to prove I could.
When you call, meet you in the morning.
Sun’s up, you’ve got your warnings.
I’ve known you long enough,
head’s too hard for you to give shit up.
You said that you would owe me one million apologies.
Here’s me taking you seriously.
Here’s me praying you could.

I have become so disgusted, I’ve become heliocentric.
Try to change my point of view, I’ll become disgusting too.
And you pass that corner store on the street that you endure,
looking for your next big score, pick me up if you get bored.
Slowly corrupted, slowly corrupted
I’ve become so disgusted, I’ve become heliocentric.
Tried to change my field of view, I’ll become just like you.
And you pass that corner store on the street that you endure,
Looking for your next big score, pick me up if you get bored.
Slowly corrupted, slowly corrupted
You could have been the painters pride.
You threw it all away for some instincts.
You could do whatever you like.
Given you have time.

Are you crying because you’re proud
Are you just reshading the new light, remembering your old life
the air is heavy on the high road
I’ve been breathing real slow for some time
to forget what it felt like

You caught me faded, away in someone’s basement
I’ll try to just explain shit to how things used to be
Since my trying, I won’t stop crying
Finding my replacements- one good thing you taught me

I keep our picture in my dresser, not because I’m sentimental
it’s just a time I felt helpful

And I will love you forever
Even though I find it so hard to do
When I find meaning in the struggle
I wonder if that's just what you're used to

You got me fading away from civilization
I’ll try to just arrange shit to how it used to seem
And since my trying, I’ve lost control, I’m dying
Finding my replacements- one good thing you taught me